From all I can learn I think the Methodist church in these United
States is about to have a general division the North from the South
on the Subject of Slavery. the North against & the South in favor of
Slavery.
Clinton Mississippi June 15th. I844
My Dear Brother Robert,
I once more attempt to write a letter so far
as my Strength will permit, I have not heard from any of you since
Br. K. Cordner wrote me something more than twelve months since I think,
& indeed from the tenor of my last letter which I think I wrote in
Sept. last to Br. Wm. I am not much surprised, as I then thought & I
think so stated that I felt as though I could not survive much longer,
but an inscutible & merciful providence has still sustained me a while
longer. During the past winter I suffered exceedingly from an additional
affliction of diease in the inner part of my mouth & throat & I
became so reduced between weakness & pain to be scarcely able sometimes
to
distinguish day from night. My Dear Br. when I think of what I then
came
through,
and the comparative & ease I now enjoy I truly feel
utterly unable to return sufficinet thankfulness to a Kind Heavenly
Father who has hitherto brought me through, & still continues to bless
me, in my feeble, though sincere desires to approach his heavenly grace.
I would again & again humbly thank him for his astonishing love, in
providing for us guilty & helpless rebels a full & complete ransom in
the great sacifice of our blessed Lord & Saviour to whom be glory &
dmoinion for ever & ever I feel on that rock I am safe, but I truly
feel indeed that "without him I can do nothing."
to
July 26th. Since writing the foregoing you see considerable time has
elapsed, writing upon my bed is but an irksome business & it is at
times distressing to me, my heart is affected often with weakness &
oppression, but my general feelings are improved, & my poor bones which
formerly were almost literally without flesh, have now got their sharp
angles/somewhat rounded; I. cannot say however that there is any
grounds to consider a restoration to health probable,as it appears from
the symptoms; that the lower large bowel called the Colon is affected
with a chronic disease beyond the reach of cure, & when I takes a sudden
turn for the worse it brings me very low. My old friend Mr.Nichol
(the Br. of my sisterinlaw) got married something more than a year
ago, & went to housekeeping in this place, but last Jany. he moved off
from here, I75 miles North, so I have been cut off from his personal
kindness; but I thank God that notwithstanding I felt I should loose
a friend, yet I rejoiced in what I considered likely to promote his
own happiness But my Dear Br. don't consider me as without friende
providence has given me many friends both among the wise & simple (if
I may so speak) & one in particular a Methodist family living in Canada
of the name of Mower who is simple indeed in the things of this world,
but whse in the things that pertain to salvation, stuck very close to
me in the time of my greatest suffering, & various others beside him
showed me great kindness; Verily godliness is profitable unto all
things to this, as well as the future life,
3-
I would not be doing justice to omit mentioning another individual who
has been & still is a remarkable kind & useful friend. She is an old
maiden aunt of my sisterinlaw, an Irishwoman by the name of Miss